{"id":89897,"date":"2020-07-09T17:14:24","date_gmt":"2020-07-09T22:14:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ringsidereport.com\/?p=89897"},"modified":"2026-03-20T22:25:55","modified_gmt":"2026-03-21T03:25:55","slug":"outrageous-these-thoughts-that-haunt-my-every-waking-moment","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ringsidereport.com\/?p=89897","title":{"rendered":"Outrageous, These Thoughts That Haunt My Every Waking Moment!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-1545664804358300\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><br \/>\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display: block; text-align: center;\" data-ad-layout=\"in-article\" data-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-1545664804358300\" data-ad-slot=\"8616314829\"><\/ins><br \/>\n<script>\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});<\/script><\/p>\n<p><strong><a href=\"https:\/\/ringsidereport.com\/?p=89897\" rel=\"https:\/\/ringsidereport.com\/?p=89897\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft wp-image-87723 size-medium\" style=\"margin-right: 10px;\" src=\"https:\/\/ringsidereport.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/04\/trump-presidency-would-likely-unsettle-markets-clinton-win-would-not-300x169.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"169\" srcset=\"https:\/\/ringsidereport.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/04\/trump-presidency-would-likely-unsettle-markets-clinton-win-would-not-300x169.jpg 300w, https:\/\/ringsidereport.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/04\/trump-presidency-would-likely-unsettle-markets-clinton-win-would-not.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a>By E.L. Alexander <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I told by my ex sister-in-law that I wasn\u2019t going to come on Facebook anymore until after the election-because the reiteration of her belief in the Trump manifestoes was making me anxious\u2014she told me she understood that \u201chearing the truth\u201d would make me feel that way\u2014when in no second of time have I ever said I believed any of it. She has bought into the whole agenda, that the coronavirus is a hoax, all newscasters lie, racism is a made-up nonsense and the Confederate Flag is just a memory we must embrace.<\/p>\n<p>Now, this woman lived through the abusive narcissism of my older brother. She helped ME understand his narcissism and why he has always treated me with such judgment and disdain. She helped me with this confusion about his behavior towards me, just ONE year ago. This woman KNOWS what a narcissist is like\u2014has lived through his abuse and is very informed about what it is\u2014so why can\u2019t she see that Trump is a malignant narcissist? <!--more--><\/p>\n<p>I have seen many psychologists analyze Trump\u2019s behavior\u2014but what is it about that reprehensible man that attracts him to many? Are they simply drawn to his hate? He is not handsome nor intelligent. He is not talented in any way shape or form. Why is he so attractive to his minions? Why is he attractive to the poor, whom he does not serve?<\/p>\n<p>I have spent the greater part of the past few years of my life, after an extremely horrible illness, examining my origins, and why and how people have and have not evolved. I left that podunk town where I grew up, because I was always in dissonance with the narrow minded and limited view of the people there. They were my people, and I understand their ideas and concerns, but they are very limited. I expanded my world with my move to Seattle in 1986, immediately attacking the issues of racism and how I was involved or did not understand what it all meant. I wrote a personal treatise on my complete lack of comprehension of the racism I had learned while growing up in that town.<\/p>\n<p>I was friends with a Chinese man (an American \u2013born American, but his grandfather had immigrated as a worker originally from China\u2014so he is Chinese) when I moved to Seattle. He was involved with the Northwest Asian American Theatre\u2014NWAT. This company was creating a production called \u201cMiss Minidoka 1942.\u201d It was a musical that took place in the Minidoka Internment Camp during WWII as a reflection of the Miss America Pageant of the same time, but comedically reflective of the Japanese American experience, at that time. I worked on some of the musical numbers with my friend, who was writing many of the songs for the production. I had said to my friend, Richard, that I, \u201cdidn\u2019t think of him as Chinese, because he was just like anyone else.\u201d He told me he was insulted by that, because by saying that, I had erased who he was and his family and all that he held dear.<\/p>\n<p>It was the beginning of my exploration into my own racial prejudices that I didn\u2019t realize I had. I was convinced inculturation of immigrants was the best way for them to become \u201creal\u201d Americans, as my mother had told me about her own grandparents\u2014one of whom had never learned English and one of whom had. She said it was important to integrate to become an American.<\/p>\n<p>The problem with this indoctrination into \u201cAmericanism\u201d is that those who come here from somewhere else give up their own culture \u2013and integrate what? Exactly? If they are white\u2014they are then\u2014&#8221;White.\u201d If they are a person of color\u2014they are\u2014\u201cother.\u201d If white people hung on to their cultures of origin and stopped accepting the \u201cwhite\u201d designation America wants them to take on, they might not categorize people of color as \u201cother.\u201d And there might be a better understanding of the value of divergent cultures from which we can all find love, joy and enthusiasm.<\/p>\n<p>Donald Trump is the epitome of these fears, from \u201cwhite,\u201d cultural indoctrination. He promotes the fears un-cultured people have AND recreates \u201cculture\u201d for them\u2014of hate, dissonance and safety within said group. They gather in fan groups, as a way to \u201cfind\u201d someplace to \u201cbelong.\u201d If they belonged to and celebrated within their own historical cultures, they would have no reason to find this abyss of hateful, deplorable, fear mongering, \u201cculture\u201d appealing to them\u2014they would have some joy and belonging in their own cultural beginnings\u2014and find ways to share their own culture with others who are different.<\/p>\n<p>Donald Trump\u2019s values are this: Money is all that matters, because in HIS family, that was the only thing they cared about\u2014and despite the recent immigration of his family, he has no emotional or psychological connection to his German or Scottish roots. HE celebrates none of it, and only sees any connection to Scotland, as a way to try to make more money. His values and the values of most rich capitalist focused politicians are that if it makes money\u2014it is a success-and anything that doesn\u2019t make us richer is not worth doing. We need not re-evaluate what we value in this country\u2014it is really people, and not money. So the sacrifice of our children and elders to coronavirus is slimly a statement of capitalist money values, and not the people who are the real value to this country.<\/p>\n<p>Donald Trump is the evil, seeping sludge of money values without any cultural significance. Nothing he does has a spiritual, religious or historically cultural meaning. It is empty and without love, hope or connection to anything remotely human. He values nothing but that money in his cold hands\u2014like Judas. He is nothing. He is a pitiful lost black hole of nothing. We can be better than that. 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